It is sad not to follow by your own rules. My “new life” is sarcastically  named. I am old. I am lazy and old. I have small brain activity. I am falling into degradation.

Three days were wasted without any posts and thoughts. Where is my reading? Where are my nice companies with a good clever people? Have I got any excuse? Yes, of course. I always find the way to “support” myself.

I do not know how to wake up. I do not know how to be in harmony with myself. I need help.